Dove-Meadow 3

Reply to: A letter from Meadow

Hey, Meadow.

Writing to you has become one of my guilty pleasures too. It’s a nice break from all of the other things in my life.

I’m so happy to hear about Jena! It must be so lonely, living in a world where no one understands you when you speak clearly. Hopefully, with time, she can grow up into a beautiful and happy child.

I don’t think that toddlers have attention spans any shorter than older children- I just think they don’t yet have the same “social graces” and just express whatever they happen to feel at the moment. Jena is just letting you know how she feels about whatever is happening, right now.

Oh, I got a promotion at work! I’m a “Technological Innovator” now. That means I get to install RAM on the computers.

I wrote about these things first because I have a lot of other things to write about.

Firstly… The things I said, about saying unkind things… I meant multiple people. Different people. They didn’t know each other. They didn’t really know me. It was then and over, now and gone. No different from one of your crushes, except I acted and found them willing. I take solace in the fact that I know they will not remember me.

I don’t think I ever felt that true connection either.

Not until now.

Maki Sasaki moved in last week, and I have never been happier in my life. She’s amazing, kind, funny- the person I never knew I wanted in my life. She’s been the best friend I could ever ask for, and more.

She’s been helping me get things straightened out around here, renovating the bedroom and kitchen to get ready for whatever comes next in our lives.

Because what’s coming next is going to be the biggest thing in anyone’s life, really.

I’m pregnant. And I’m going to give birth very soon. I know it seems sudden, but I was when I started writing. I’m sorry for hiding something so major from you, but I wasn’t sure what to say, or how you would judge me- or anyone else, for that matter, which is why I didn’t put it up front initially. I’ve been dealing with a lot of stress from all directions, including this decision. I’ve been going on a fixing-stuff tear to deal with it, just fixing everything, fixing the things that aren’t even broken, I even installed a hypercompressor in the building trash chute after it jammed! But I think things will be a little better, with this out in the air. Hopefully.

All the best, whether or not you ever write again,

Dove